I need to vent

3 workdays I gotta wait. For this payment to open my shit up. I’m guessing on Tuesday. It’s not mixedpearl.nu, I’m gonna fix everything before I launch it publically. I have my theme ready and misc things. All I’m doing is waiting to get in and set the shit up. I haven’t blogged in days. I’ve retrieved some nerve damage in my left hand. Ain’t passed for 5 days so it’s time to hit the hospital. Duno how I managed to get this. I have no strenght in my fingers and I drop things held in the hand because some fingers are numb. I’m sighing here. SO I done some thinking and I won’t write crap like this or the previous entry in my dot something. I’ve spent money on it and want to keep it clean so I’ll only update that site with events and pictures, I suppose. And since RL friends and family will have that address. I guess I’ll still keep this one (or if I make a new) and write shitness here. I miss Antonio, I haven’t seen him for over a week. My mental illness has forbidden me to leave my house, haven’t been out much. (Yeah I’m in worse shape mentally than I portray in this journal). I guess the more tired I become of my situation the more I reveal, or some shit. Ya’ll can judge but you duno shit. Go head make yourself look stupid with ignorance, I don’t care, your life is not my life and I’m not effected by ignorance. Pssh! I couldn’t care less about ppls comments. Anyho, I’m keen on testing wordpress plugins and stuff I’ve seen on the net. Can’t wait till Tuesday! Blah blah blah blah.. .

Now I have a juicy muffin with triple chocolate waiting on me.  Envy bitches.

Hello folks :D

Long time 😀 .Truth is I got tired of blogging in English and went back to my native for a while. I know I’m very “changative”. Now I feel like writing in English again so here I am 😀 , that’s the story.

Anotnio had a photo up on MSN and it loks like him and he says it but he’s very “jokeative”. He sent me it but I can’t make out if it’s him or not! He said he’s 16 or something at the pic, I say I didn’t know his hair is curly! Ok the eyes are similar and some other things. So after he insited and said ok then don’t believe me I had to eyeee the damn pic. The neck and color body skin is exactly the same as Antonios. But I seen a pic of Tony when (yeah only one) when he was younger and he didn’t look like that. I have no idea if it’s him! And I wanna knowwwww. So any of you that are regular readers of my journal(s) and those of you who knows me personally in Real Life, help me out! Have Your say to help me! 😀

Is This Antonio? (Gosh I duno what my own BF looks like) Could it be him when he was 16? Well, I guess anythings possible? Gah!!

a twist of truth

A person comes to you with a twisted truth to try provoke a well feeling in you for that person. It could be called a small manipulate act. You recognize the truth in his twist and informs him of your awareness. The man becomes upset and portrays a slight anger and claims he is offended, sometimes he even throw in something similar to that he thought that you was different but he guesses not. Sometimes even a you think you are something but your not. Sometimes his action of treatment towards you is far worse. You shattered his plan and his ego is to large to laugh at him self and with you.

Assumptions

People judge out from their own perspective of the knowledge they have learned from life. They see out from them selves. So they don’t see the truth of the person who they observe, but rather their own truth. A correct judgement is possible but most people can’t think outside their box. I’m having trouble with this kind because I just have no patience for ‘stupidity’. It can really get on my nerves. I come across it so often in a variety of versions and not only in the gestalt of false interpreted assumptions. So often do I encounter ignorance and the time it’s all too much for me is the behaviour of one civil to another in the daily businesses of our lives. When we doesn’t realize that we bump into to the person in front of us in a line and they use violence in the form of an elbow that hits our stomach’s instead of verbally informing us. When they have no more sense than performing a violent action, when they assume out from their own perspective instead of being open minded and questioning their own assumptions. So many are not even aware of that they might be doing something that isn’t so good, if everyone could only be blessed a hint of suggestion. I bet it wouldn’t only bring their own lives more happiness but also the people whose unfortunate enough to encounter them. So many are blind folded and they aren’t aware of it.